Over the last few months, I’ve been studying prayer and intercession.
And the best way to study prayer and intercession is to pray and intercede.
I’ve spent intentional time in the presence of God, wrestling with what it means to wait on God and to hear His voice.
What does He sound like?
What am I waiting for?
What’s going on in my heart?
Throughout this process, I have fallen in love with the presence of God.
There was a day recently when I was spending time in prayer and I found myself begging God for something.
I mean like pleading. Literally crying out for God to move in a specific way.
And I felt like I heard Him say, ‘Daughters don’t have to beg.’
I was stunned, at first, not at the profundity of the statement but at His, seemingly, lack of concern for the issue I was praying about.
After I got over myself, I realized that statement was about my heart posture.
Growing up in pentecostal/charismatic church settings, I’ve always struggled with the difference between begging and desperation as it relates to prayer.
And I think I figured it out.
Desperation comes from a place of confidence - knowing that God is going to do what He says He will do.
It’s my emotion connected to His reality.
Begging comes from a place of distrust - lack of clarity on the promises of God and confusion.
But daughters don’t have to beg and neither do sons.
God wasn’t ignoring my request with that statement.
He was establishing my identity.