Faith is an odd thing.
Especially when you’re (or were) a paid faith professional (read: pastor).
Faith is believing in stuff you don’t see yet.
Faith is trusting God.
I’m not sure I trust God well.
Truth is - I’m on a faith journey right now.
I left a job I loved because God told me to.
No, I didn’t wake up one morning and say, ‘I think I’ll quit my job today.’
I prayed about it for over a year, got counsel from my family, a few close friends, and my pastor.
I didn’t leave until I had successfully trained my successors.
And before I knew it, I was unemployed.
It was nice the first two weeks. I’m terrible at taking care of myself so the rest was nice.
But now I’m in week five of unemployment.
I’ve turned down offers from churches that most of you have heard of. And I feel absolutely crazy.
I wake up every morning with a knot in my stomach and a promise in my heart.
I didn’t leave my job for the ‘next best thing.’
In fact, I believe the best thing is where you’re planted.
So this is not about chasing opportunity for me.
This is about obedience, surrender, and…
And I thought I knew God before this.
But I’m realizing that I had settled for a version of Him that made me comfortable and secure.
I’ve preaching on faith, taught on faith, discipled around the principle of faith, and even pushed others in faith.
But I wrestled with taking a step of faith myself.
Hypocrisy reveals a lot folks.
So this post is not about how awesome I am for taking a step of faith (because it sure doesn’t feel like it).
This post about me in process which is what I want embrace.live to be about.